AUTHENTICITY ~ DEPRESSION ~ SUICIDE
What does being authentic mean… in short without Webster, it means to be real, to be you, to SHINE without FEAR, without SHAME, without GUILT. It’s caring less what others think and more what you think o yourself. .
To become authentic dig deep within you and allow your inner light to shine and out-bright any darkness that’s within. You do this by quieting the mind to see what comes up, to discover who you are. It means being WHO YOU ARE outside of the mask, roles, and labels. A good place to start is… asking yourself, WHO AM I? I remember when I was asked this in a workshop, and I was instructed to explain who I was without labels, jobs or titles. I had no answer. For years. Who the hell am I? We are taught to identify and attach ourselves to our jobs or roles, yet when these things shift and change throughout a lifetime, we are often faced with a void. We immediately grasp to fill that void with something outside of ourselves… again, and again…such is the cycle. What is left in the center is your core, your atman, YOUR TRUTH & authenticity. Getting to that center is the practice, and the practice is yoga!
We are never taught about how to accept, love and honor who we are, yet, instead we are taught to compete, compare, judge, look at others for insight into our own desires. This creates separation, like we are somehow different. WE are not. Look at the current state of the WORLD. It is the epitome of separation. Red verse Blue. Black verse white. Rich verse poor. Vax verse anti–vax, mask verse anti-mask…. do you see????? Are you on one of those sides and so attached to your own belief, you have became closed? This is the opposite of yoga altogether. It seems very little has changed since the beginning of time except now we fight smarter, cleaner, more sophisticated, and cowardly than before. But we are all against each other. What if we…..LOVE ONE ANOTHER, instead?
What if we were taught to look at ourselves and love WHAT WE SEE. Instead of looking at Hollywood or Social media platforms for advice on how to live, what if we looked in the mirror? Have you ever tried mirror work? Instead we are taught to want what everyone else has. We are taught to fill this void with material things that are short lived and the void still remains. We are taugh to get bigger ___ fill in the blank____ how many have you done: boobs, butts, lips, eye brows, eye lashes, etc. or starved yourself for a smaller waist. We are taught to look at others and desire what they have instead of accepting what we have. We are taught that every product out there will make us better, happier, smarter… but this is short lived and how the rat race & depression/anxiety begins. It is also what feeds corporate America. Advertising brings AWAY from our authentic self. By age 30, we have seen 1 million commercials (this stat is pre social media), all saying you are inadequate without this product; and we buy into it like addicts, because addicts we are. We compare ourselves to people we don’t even know based on outside, external, AESTHETIC factors; all while taking us out of our center, away from our soul, and disconnected to who we are born to be and are, our atman, our authentic self. Vanity. Ego. Checks. Balances. Why is this important more now than ever? Why is it important to practice Santosha- contitment? Because being unhappy with who we are, always trying to please others, causes stress and stress causes disease. We have enough stress in the world so let’s focus on the stressors we can control and eliminate them. Through this we instill contentment. Through contentment and peace, we begin to see with the eyes of the soul. The soul only sees love and dispels fear. Finding peace was important before, but now…..IT’S MANDATORY! Again, LOVE ONE ANOTHER!
We have all been uprooted, turned upside down with what is happening currently everywhere, beyond the virus. It is hard for the most disciplined yogi to remain calm and peaceful and out of fear and into love with everything going on. If you look around at your friends, family, community, you can see the same disconnect among people as we see on the news- this is collective consciousness. We need to raise our vibration. We need to take a step back and remember the things we can control, Remeber the things that bring us healing love and energy. NATURE is the most healing energy you can endure, and its FREE and all around us. Whatever that is for you, you can choose to bring it back into practice right now.
TRY THIS:
TURN the TV AND SOCIAL MEDIA OFF for 72 hours, and then if you notice you feel good, continue it for longer. If 72 hours is too overwhelming, try for 24 hours.
Try it. Or don’t.
What does all this cause? What does constantly trying to please others cause? What does all the bickering and separation cause? Depression. Anger. Anxiety. Discomfort. When we are not in our daily practice (of whatever) then these start to sneak their way into our consciousness. We become careless. If you are careless in one area you’re careless in all areas. When people are depressed or anxious- they seek anything to make that feeeling go away, anything they can to ESCAPE. This causes addiction. Addiction causes more uprooting, more disconnect, more depression… and the race begins. 40% of Americans claim to experience depression in 2020, this is more than double from 2019 (18.5%), and of that 11% thought of suicide, according to the CDC Website. These numbers are unacceptable for a healthy, wealthy, 1st world country. Something isn’t right.
What can we do to help? Stop shaming. Stop guilting. Stop hating others. Focus on your own shit versus being overly concerned with everyone else. I guarentee you will feel a shift within you. Try to look at others and see their soul, see them doing the best they know how. See YOU in THEM. Instead of making someone feel bad about their choice, what if you supported them and uplifted them, even if it is not what you would have done. What if we text I LOVE YOU, instead of the new covid numbers. What if we continued life- living, and creating – joy – each and every day, however you want- mask, no mask, vax, no vax, and do not ask something so personal. Try it. Work on detaching from your BELIEF. What if your smile could change someone’s entire life?
I recently got news that a student, and local of New Smyrna Beach committed suicide by jumping off a building. The pain he, or anyone who has committed suicide, must have been in is something I can’t fathom. Some say its selfish, but I have to believe they do not know how to survive in this world. It is not about you. It is about them, sadly, they do not have the capacity to take care of themselves, let alone worry about others. This young man was one of the happiest students, consistently, as he walked through the doors- always smiling. He practiced yoga regularly, if not daily. He never did not have a smile. So much, I found myself wondering what in the world could he be so happy about right now. Turns out, he wasn’t happy. He was struggling and his struggles ran deep. I could feel a sense of despair in this man, but he was doing the HARD work every day at yoga. He was healing. I thought. What if I stayed after and talked to him after class instead of rushing to the next thing, what if I gave him an oppotunirty to share his story and was less concerned with my own. What if I could have helped him? What if I DIDN’T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT’S COVER.
I do not know his story, but I know the impression he left on me and many others in the short time he was at the studio. Matt Kraker, REST EASY MY FELOW YOGI. You truly will be missed. I wish we would have known. I wish I would had taken the time to see you deeper. I am sorry.